Do people do this? Change their careers in their mid 30's? I feel as though I should be grown up now, I should be settled in my profession of choice.
Thing is, I'm not. 10 years into social work and I'm still not sure whether this is really what I want to be doing. It's a tiring job. At times it's highly emotional. It's poorly paid (our sector earns about $15000 less than others). The expectations on us are beginning to exceed what is actually possible. A starting salary in Child Protection is what I could expect as a manager in my organisation and yet the jobs of child protection are gradually being shifted onto services like mine - without the remuneration to go with it. Court literally does my head in. The idea of court produces such anxiety in me that I doubt my effectiveness on the stand. Yet the foster care worker is one of the main witnesses, after the protective worker.
I was in Dusk yesterday picking up a few more of my favourite melts (If you haven't tried these I recommend that you do - standouts for me are Honolulu and Passion) and while standing at the counter I picked up a card which read 'RECRUITING NOW'. Walking out of the shop with card in hand, I began to seriously contemplate whether I should send in my CV. I often find myself fantasising about a job where I can go, earn money, leave it all there when I go home. Where I don't have to manage family dynamics and the behaviour of traumatised children. Where I don't have to supervise the sometimes fraught access visits between children and their birth families. Where I don't spend 80 per cent of my time sitting in front of a computer - in a job I took because I wanted to work with people - and worrying that I haven't seen my client enough this month.
Dusk would be a perfect job for me right now. I adore their products so I would have no issue selling them. I could work less than 3 days a week if I should so desire (a luxury my current position does not afford me). I would work at work and be a parent at home, a novel concept!
My concern with taking the step out of my chosen career path is that I will end up standing behind a counter somewhere feeling like I'm not doing a worthy job. Because all my life I've been geared up around helping people so it makes sense that it's what I chose to do for a living. Would I feel unstimulated and bored? Would the conversations I have seem a bit superficial?
Regardless, I think I will forward my CV to Dusk. I can always go back to foster care after my children have grown a little more and don't require so much of my attention. It'll be a good move for the family. And me.
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Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Child abuse - moving the focus to prevention
In the news today, Child abuse taskforce. Just months after this, a report released late last year by the Australian Childhood Foundation, Child Abuse Prevention Research Australia at Monash University and Access Economics Pty Ltd. Full report below for those interested. Definitely worth a read.
The Cost of Child Abuse in Australia.
The Cost of Child Abuse in Australia.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Me time
Over the past couple of years I have struggled in finding the right balance between work and parenting (and my own sense of self, squashed in there somewhere). Of course parenting is a full time job, but if I'm honest the amount of quality parenting done in this house when I'm working 3 days a week and stressing about housework and other necessary evils is less than my ideal. A fact that I, compulsive worrier that I am, of course stress about!
In order to unpack this I had to look at the issue from a number of different angles. What do I want? What is reasonable to expect? What am I actually capable of maintaining?
Firstly, I need to work (for the purpose of this post I'm defining work as paid employment outside the home). We bought a house last year. I'm not really a subscriber to the 'I'm a better parent because I work' attitude. I actually think I'd be a more focussed and intentional parent if I didn't work. If I'm honest I would not be working now if we had the means for me to stay at home. But we need my income. My role is incompatible with anything less than 3 days per week, so unless I get another job (unlikely in these uncertain economic times) that will remain unchanged.
Secondly, housework and cooking need to be done. As much as I'd like to blissfully ignore mess and dirt, I can't deny that it bugs me. A lot. That's not to say my house is spick and span, anyone who knows me well can vouch that it is far from it. But I do worry when I feel that it's getting on top of me and there just aren't the hours in the day to make a dent in it. And as much as I can go on at Matt in regards to housework, the facts are that he is of the male variety, they simply don't have the same radar as women and it will never bother him as much as it irks me. Therefore it will never make sense to him when I freak out because the dishwasher hasn't been emptied or there are clothes piling up beside the bed, or our feet stick to the tiles in the kitchen. After 10 years I get that and I'm over having conversations with him about divvying up the household labour, because It Doesn't Work. It bothers me - I notice, it doesn't bother him - he doesn't notice. There's no room for negotiation with a scenario such as this.
So how then do I make this manageable for me and still add value to my children's lives by being a worthy parent? It's not rocket science but this is what I came up with. Below are my essentials, I also engage in many other unmentioned activities but these are the musts, if-I-do nothing-else-list.
1) Plan meals, have ingredients on hand, cook as much as possible in advance. This is especially hard for me seeing as I loathe cooking, but have reaped the rewards of such planning, and it's not to be underestimated!
2) Sit with my children where possible at meal times, even if I don't eat at the same time. I always sit with Mieke and Quinn while they have their dinner but will often wait for mine until Matt is home.
3) Read to the children, every single day. This time (we do it just before bed) is precious. We are giving them our undivided attention, conversing with them, teaching them, holding them. They value this time as much as Matt and I do.
4) Go to bed at a reasonable hour, despite the sink full of dishes and the washing still in machine. I cannot do anything if I don't sleep properly, lack of sleep retards me.
5) Get a house cleaner. Once a week or fornight. She will ensure the toilet is clean and the floors are vacuumed and mopped on a regular basis. I can do the fiddly stuff. I'm earning money, the process of which takes me out of my house for 3 days every week, sometimes more. Might as well use a small portion of it to outsource some duties that I would otherwise be fulfilling.
6) Have regular Me Time. I have realised the true value of this only recently. ME time, not couple time (which is also essential, though completely separate from what I'm talking about here). Time with friends or on my own. I find it rejuvenating after even a couple of hours of coffee and cake with a friend. A swim. A movie. Dinner out. Drinks. A concert. All of these I have done or are on my calendar to do with friends and it fills me with another dimension of joy.
7) Regular exercise - this could also fit into #6, but I wanted to emphasise the exercise as a point worthy of its own number. I mostly walk on my own first thing in the morning but lately it's been me and the Beagle. We got bikes for Christmas last year and I must must must ride mine more often.
In order to unpack this I had to look at the issue from a number of different angles. What do I want? What is reasonable to expect? What am I actually capable of maintaining?
Firstly, I need to work (for the purpose of this post I'm defining work as paid employment outside the home). We bought a house last year. I'm not really a subscriber to the 'I'm a better parent because I work' attitude. I actually think I'd be a more focussed and intentional parent if I didn't work. If I'm honest I would not be working now if we had the means for me to stay at home. But we need my income. My role is incompatible with anything less than 3 days per week, so unless I get another job (unlikely in these uncertain economic times) that will remain unchanged.
Secondly, housework and cooking need to be done. As much as I'd like to blissfully ignore mess and dirt, I can't deny that it bugs me. A lot. That's not to say my house is spick and span, anyone who knows me well can vouch that it is far from it. But I do worry when I feel that it's getting on top of me and there just aren't the hours in the day to make a dent in it. And as much as I can go on at Matt in regards to housework, the facts are that he is of the male variety, they simply don't have the same radar as women and it will never bother him as much as it irks me. Therefore it will never make sense to him when I freak out because the dishwasher hasn't been emptied or there are clothes piling up beside the bed, or our feet stick to the tiles in the kitchen. After 10 years I get that and I'm over having conversations with him about divvying up the household labour, because It Doesn't Work. It bothers me - I notice, it doesn't bother him - he doesn't notice. There's no room for negotiation with a scenario such as this.
So how then do I make this manageable for me and still add value to my children's lives by being a worthy parent? It's not rocket science but this is what I came up with. Below are my essentials, I also engage in many other unmentioned activities but these are the musts, if-I-do nothing-else-list.
1) Plan meals, have ingredients on hand, cook as much as possible in advance. This is especially hard for me seeing as I loathe cooking, but have reaped the rewards of such planning, and it's not to be underestimated!
2) Sit with my children where possible at meal times, even if I don't eat at the same time. I always sit with Mieke and Quinn while they have their dinner but will often wait for mine until Matt is home.
3) Read to the children, every single day. This time (we do it just before bed) is precious. We are giving them our undivided attention, conversing with them, teaching them, holding them. They value this time as much as Matt and I do.
4) Go to bed at a reasonable hour, despite the sink full of dishes and the washing still in machine. I cannot do anything if I don't sleep properly, lack of sleep retards me.
5) Get a house cleaner. Once a week or fornight. She will ensure the toilet is clean and the floors are vacuumed and mopped on a regular basis. I can do the fiddly stuff. I'm earning money, the process of which takes me out of my house for 3 days every week, sometimes more. Might as well use a small portion of it to outsource some duties that I would otherwise be fulfilling.
6) Have regular Me Time. I have realised the true value of this only recently. ME time, not couple time (which is also essential, though completely separate from what I'm talking about here). Time with friends or on my own. I find it rejuvenating after even a couple of hours of coffee and cake with a friend. A swim. A movie. Dinner out. Drinks. A concert. All of these I have done or are on my calendar to do with friends and it fills me with another dimension of joy.
7) Regular exercise - this could also fit into #6, but I wanted to emphasise the exercise as a point worthy of its own number. I mostly walk on my own first thing in the morning but lately it's been me and the Beagle. We got bikes for Christmas last year and I must must must ride mine more often.
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